Posts made in July, 2011

It’s Just A Phone!

Posted by admin on Jul 28, 2011 in Mindfulness, Play | 0 comments

You were just a little boy…perhaps only 5 or 6 years old…a curious, precious, and careful child. You were the one that took care of your toys. Perhaps because there wasn’t too many that your parents could afford at that time. Your dinky cars! You wouldn’t throw them around and let nicks and scratches mark their their shiny bodies. These were real to you and once something was entrusted to you, you took care of it.

Like the way you take care of me!

The Fight In The Car

Posted by admin on Jul 27, 2011 in Play, Poetry | 0 comments

I wrote this poem at a writing workshop last summer at one of my favorite places…the Omega Institute. My car for me is a safe place for battles …what other battlegrounds do you find yourself in?

Great battles are waged and most often lost.

In this space, there is no grace, mercy or winners, always loss
A spontaneous eruption at any moment may start
Better watch out, innocent bystander, no such chance!
“Why did you”, “How Could You”, “You Crazy Ass”
All famous lines in this great sermon and mass

Shifting Weather Patterns

Posted by admin on Jul 26, 2011 in Mindfulness, Searching | 0 comments

I often find myself noticing a constant mirroring of my internal world to my external world.  It is a “truth” I seem to have had some awareness for all my life… that often or maybe even always, my internal world is a reflection of my external world. Lately I have come to know the reverse was well.

Learning to Sit with Monsters

Posted by admin on Jul 12, 2011 in Mindfulness, Searching | 0 comments

Sitting in meditation for me is uncomfortable!  Not just physically. That’s a given for someone who has slouched most of her life. I have yet to master sitting “in an upright and dignified” position…which is a common set of instructions provided by very dignified looking meditation teachers.  I might start out like a mountain, but I soon transform into slouchy jell-o on the brink of melting into grape juice and gelatin!

Investing In Delusions?

Posted by admin on Jul 11, 2011 in Mindfulness, Searching | 0 comments

I’m sitting by the poolside watching my son and daughter play in the pool with their cousins.  We are vacationing for a few days on the spectacular island of Naxos in Greece and today will be a pool day.  In between reading, conversations with my husband and taking in the poolside fraternizing, 

Trauma is a Tyrant

Posted by admin on Jul 8, 2011 in Mindfulness, Poetry, Searching | 1 comment

Trauma is a tyrant
He has friends in all the right places
Guards, who are ready to attack
Trespassers on forbidden territory

Don’t mess with him
Don’t mess with them
Don’t go places you don’t belong
Don’t go digging filled in holes
Don’t go searching underneath rocks or stones
It’s not safe
Deep inside
The other side of these walls

If you are a good listener
Learnt to not to listen to your-self
You will heed this advice
And stay safe
Outside the lines
And
Waste away your life

But,
If you are brave
If you long to taste the possibilities
Of forgotten dreams
Or felt too long
A gnawing, a knowing, a nagging
Or longed to walk in bright sunny fields
Making daisy chains
Without pain

Then,
You will take down your masks,
Take off your armour
Lay down the swords
And go deep, deep into the unknown
And meet these creatures of terror

You will swallow their poison of fear
And
Spit it back in their faces
Transform,
Become the antidote
Which you will use
To find yourself once more